Is it love? Is it lust?

I have to say that i'm still in love with the mother of my child. I love her deeply and i am happy that we have a kid together.

I do know at this time in my life that will make me happy is to be with the mother of my child and my daughter, just be a family, take care of the ex and my kid, and be there for them. They mean the world to me. 

At the moment I know that the ex doesn't love me and doesn't wanna get back with me....But i always ask myself i just wish i had one more chance? I know i have done wrong in the past but i know now and i regret it. I regret it so much it hurts me so much and i cry myself to sleep most nights. 

So now i thought to myself that i want to be the man that the ex is looking for and i want to be the best friend and boyfriend that she ever had and the best father to my daughter....Im willing to give up on alot of things for both of them...

I have never had a father figure in my life and i hate my dad so much that i just dont talk to him anymore. So i never had a family. Im trying to be the better father than my own and would like to have a family

I just wish that i had one more chance with the ex so i can have my own family....

As i said i know the ex doesn't love me but if we got back together and for a while she dont love me at least we gave it a shot and we can remain friends.....thats all i want is to give it one more go and see if we can be a family

Ady