NO NO NO is what i get

Why should i waste my breath on you Erin....Im over you saying NO NO NO.....Im sick and tired of repeating myself to you...I always keep my part and you dont keep yours.....when u say something eg: "Have a few supervised visits then u can have Kyra for a few hours on your own" and then when it comes to the crunch u always say "NO"...Im sick and tired of it all...you are pushing me away from my own daughter....I deserve this time with my daughter on my own and without you there....

I have came up every weekend using my own money for petrol and food and some presents for both of you....Also u havent brought Kyra up to see her NONNA (My mum) since November last year...

U did make a compromise for Christmas and u broke that...we still have the Christmas tree up so we can celebrate kyra's first Christmas with her family....also you wont allow me to let kyra have a 2nd 1st Birthday party in melbourne so she can celebrate it with he family...

She is "OUR" DAUGHTER ERIN - not only yours - not only mine - "OUR DAUGHTER." 

All i want is to have some time with our daughter and be the best father i can be....

Is it love? Is it lust?

I have to say that i'm still in love with the mother of my child. I love her deeply and i am happy that we have a kid together.

I do know at this time in my life that will make me happy is to be with the mother of my child and my daughter, just be a family, take care of the ex and my kid, and be there for them. They mean the world to me. 

At the moment I know that the ex doesn't love me and doesn't wanna get back with me....But i always ask myself i just wish i had one more chance? I know i have done wrong in the past but i know now and i regret it. I regret it so much it hurts me so much and i cry myself to sleep most nights. 

So now i thought to myself that i want to be the man that the ex is looking for and i want to be the best friend and boyfriend that she ever had and the best father to my daughter....Im willing to give up on alot of things for both of them...

I have never had a father figure in my life and i hate my dad so much that i just dont talk to him anymore. So i never had a family. Im trying to be the better father than my own and would like to have a family

I just wish that i had one more chance with the ex so i can have my own family....

As i said i know the ex doesn't love me but if we got back together and for a while she dont love me at least we gave it a shot and we can remain friends.....thats all i want is to give it one more go and see if we can be a family

Ady

REPLY TO ERIN

Erin i would like to say very nice what u wrote and no matter what im always there for both of you...as i said to you before is the only thing missing in my life is you and what we had....we have miss k and she makes me very happy and is my world and i want the best for her...you do know i want to bee there for you and kyra and i do wanna help thats why i wanna go back with u so i can be a parent.. i dont want u to do this i want to be there but as i said i wont push u and i respect your decision.

I just want you Miss K and myself to be a FAMILY and want to be there for you both and help out...you both are my world

ADY